This month I moved in with Beth and Wally. Actually Eryn, me and Kameron did. I am blessed to have such good family. I am saving to pay off my debtors, settle with them. I listed my home as a short sale and had a cash buyer with all the information in to the bank, Nationstar Mortgage. They foreclosed anyway. I got a few weeks to move out and they have the home up for sale. I don't think they will get what the buyer offered. If they come to me for the balance, I will get the information from the relator's and get an attorney. Now I will focus on rebuilding my life. No car, no home, gave away and got rid of and stored my "stuff". It is all stuff and when we die, someone has to take care of it or dispose of it. My cousin's son died, 25 in an airplane crash. Very sad, I attended the memorial in Provo tonight.I went to church again today, all the meetings. It is difficult to go. People are sweet and kind, but I don't feel like I fit in. Our church is for families. I am part of a family, but I am a divorced woman, 4 times. I really don't want people to have that experience, but they say the most interesting things and sometimes, I want to stand up in church and say, "Can you tell me really where it says that in the scriptures?" But I sit and be silent, and know that they just don't understand. And there are promises made, and my experience is that they are not all true. Yet my life is not over, maybe they are but I don't get it. Something keeps me going, my belief that Jesus Christ is my Savior.
Goodnight.
Brenda
